I really couldn't.
from the first Moment we met I was fascinated by him. he was so calm and balanced. I hadn't known before that that turned me on.
after an ONS we ran across each other the following weeks. that confused me.
we started an affair. his tranquil look into my eyes. I wanted more.
some day we were a couple, but still each of us lived his or her own life.
somehow he used me and somehow I used him.
he was so different to all my other ex boyfriends.
I yearned for him. the relationship turned into an affair again. and I was fine with that.
several friends told me I shouldn't meet him any more because he was just sponging on me. I didn't believe 'em. so I kept Meeting him - and just didn't tell them. however, I'm still not pretty sure if he took Advantage of me and my fascination for him. but if he did so, he didn't do it on purpose.
we never had a Dispute. the only time we really argued was about being vegan resp. vegetarian which the whole world better.
we lost sight of each other as we went along.
but every time we met occassionally the fascination came back. now on both sides.
most Encounters ended in bed again.
several years after that (we haven't bumped into each other for at least a year this time) I was about to break up with my current boyfriend tim. so I couldn't resist. as usual. I'm not proud about that. but it made me feel better that time.
but soon fascination faded. he was too much into me and too fragile. different to the Independent, amazing man I admired. cured.
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